it wasn't supposed to have been this way...this was supposed to be the culmination of five years of ass-busting, no-sleeping, working constantly work...it was supposed to be the attainment of nabz superstarhood and the explosion of ideas and brilliance and love
instead
the leaves have fallen onto the ground
and I feel like I've lost everything
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that doesnt sound particularly good.
i hope ur enjoying yourself in new york
abdu
Sucks if that's how you feel, but that really is poetic.
:S
Hope you are doing better now Nabz...
i think i know why i've been so depressed/let down by the entire grad school thing.
1) when you work yourself into semi-comatose states for 5 years for a specific purpose, attain said purpose, you lose the source of motivation that's driven you for years. it's depressing in a way because you feel as if you've lost your way and your drive.
2) moving to a lonely city like NYC is insanely hard. especially when all your friends and family are in a specific city and you're constantly reminded that they're all together and happy-happy. not knowing anyone in said lonely city is also hard, especially when you used to walk through a campus of 50,000 and see someone you knew every few minutes (or less sometimes)
etc etc.
but i think i'm getting back into the groove. it's final paper-writing season, which interestingly enough is probably my favourite part of the semester and I'm writing on 3 topics that I love - so it should be good :D
plus I'm home in a couple weeks - yayyyy :D
ps - thanks for the comments/concerns...
i know who all of you are (yes - even you Anonymous, at least, I think I know who you are) - so *smiles* for you all :)
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