Everyone says that the transition from high school to university is one of the most difficult periods of one's life. Now, I'm not saying that my transition wasn't difficult - I was quite lost going from a high school grad class of 19 to an economics 101 class of 375, but in the entire scheme of things, it wasn't that hard. I was lost in a spacial sort of way - not in the 'now-go-and-find-who-you-are' way.
As my years at university progressed, I became increasingly involved (to the point where I was doing more extracurricular activities than school work - not smart, especially when you start having 2 all-nighters in a week) and increasingly confident of my space in my massive university. No longer do I feel like a small segment of the university, rather, I know where I fit in.
But things have changed - I feel lost these days, absolutely freaked out about life post-university. The transition from high school to university was easy because I was going from one academic setting to another. I have a year left until I graduate (my 5th year at this university), am starting my GRE prep course in a couple of weeks, and will be submitting my first graduate school applications in the next few months. I know I could get into almost any university in this wonderful country of mine - I have the grades and the CV - but I want to go to another country, to a university that is one of the top, if not the top, in the world (in my field). It has exactly the program that I want, along with another a couple hours from it.
The problem is, I'm skeptical about my chances at getting into these two universities, and I refuse to apply to any others. I know I could get in after a few years of work, but I don't want to work. I'm a nerd; I love learning - and I want to keep on going to school. I'm freaked out because I have no idea what I'd do if I don't get into either of these graduate schools. This didn't happen at the end of high school - I was confident - completely confident about my chances. And now...
To Be Born Again...yes..that again...
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3 comments:
Considering your keen interest,inclination and your university subjects....just a small suggestion(i agree thats totally unasked for...) ....why dont you try for a university in Asia(read India) for obvious positive reasons...for a subject like yours....it doesnt get better than this...that along with learning in such a real kind of environment.....
And Yeah dont fret over it....obviously it is just a suggestion after all...dump it or give a thought to it...ur wish ...Entirely.... :o)
suggestions are good ankur - if i didn't like them, i wouldn't have had a blog.
i've thought about studying in Asia - JNU in particular, but then again, a lot of what I can get at JNU, I can get over here in North America. Plus as horrible as it sounds - I don't think i'd be able to stick it out for multiple years in India - maybe a couple of months at a time, but that's about it. I'm way too north american in temperament and in ways-of-life to do that...
plus, i really want to go to New York...
I know this was way back in july and now you must be feeling more chill because you are in the process of preparing => doing something that will directly help you achieve your goal!
so, GO GIRL! =)
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